Daily Developments

Well I thought this was going to be a cut dry life alterning choice but it has proven thanks to insurance not to be so cut and dry. I should have known I mean nothing in my life has ever been easy why would I htink this is? Anyhoo so now I am faced with many places that do have the Blue distinction and the excellence thing they require. Dr Syn in Lubbock has done 1000 of these only lost one and that was due to a blood clot not found fast enough. He has a good track record but he doesn't have this requirred thing.

So my search is not going well mainly due to the fact that I do not know these other Dr's and really don't want to drive 6 to 12 hours to get this done. Nor do I want to fly (ever) but the cost of that is crazy.

I have come to narrow the search a little. My original Dr in Lubbock suggests a Dr in Dallas Not sure that is where I want to go especially this time of year. I hate Dallas in the summer did that once and that was enough. I can also go to Wichita falls which is the closest but again I know no one there and I know nothing about the Dr. Next I have Denver which at the moment I am actually leaning toward because my step sister lives 80 miles from there and I am sure she would let me stay that first week with her and to top it off she is an RN so that would be good. I would need to call her and see if she minds but she can give me the heads up on things there and would be a good place for Karl and I to flop a few days. Would not be so blessed hot there either. Denver is beautiful however traffic in Denver is unreal so there is much to consider I mean putting your life int he hands of someone you know nothing about. I know a lot of people that have gone to DR Syn and that is what I prefer but maybe it was not in the cards for me who knows. Anyway the saga continues. keep praying and sending positive thoughts my way big big decision here.

Major se tback today. The Dr office called me this morning and my insurance company is not going to cover my surgery because the hospital doesn't have some special certification it needs for them to cover it. I am so depressed. I was so looking forward to getting this done and getting healthy. Now I either wit until it is done and who knows when that will be or I start looking for new Dr's I was excited about Lubbock because its close to home. Now I will have to go to ElPaso, Dallas, or Houston. Can you believe that Albuquerque doesn't have anyone that does this. They all go to Lubbock or El Paso. So will call the insurance office today and see what options I have. I know its about the same distance to El Paso and Dallas so who know what will happen.

Am tired of talking aobut it now so you all have good day everyone. hope its better than mine.

So its been a week at least since I have posted anything. So sorry for that. Just a fast update to the progress of surgery. I would like to do it asap but looks like its going to be in Aug the last week of July at best. They have sent everything to the insurance company and however long it takes them to approve it then to get me scheduled in.

Also a fast update last week was quite interesting I had pink eye which totally sucks and I tried to cut my thumb off.

Yesterday was my moms birthday and tomorrow is the anniversary of her death. I am having a hard time and wonder if I can make it through tomorrow at work with all those idiots calling in. It's going to be a hard day tomorrow. If I have slow periods at work tomorrow I will post another note. Just think o f me on this very difficult day please. Thanks

Buckle Up It's Going To Be A Bumpy Ride

Today Started Off Quite Rudely I have to get up between 2 and 2:30 am to get to work at 4. Today I hear the alarm go off and I tried to turn it off but it won't go off. First I should explain I wear ear plugs to bed and a sock over my eyes since I can't stand karl's snoring and I can't stand any source of light. So I can't actually see the alarm but I can tell the alarm button is in the off position. Thinking I know I didn't turn that off and go back to sleep I take my sock off my eyes and I see that the time is "WHAT 3:20 ARE YOU KIDDING ME?". I have 10 minutes until time to leave. Great no shower today so I am gonna feel itchy and gross until I get home. So I manage to scramble around and find something to put on stagger my way to the bathroom where I scare myself in the mirror with today's hair do. Thinking I don't have time for this I grab a towel run to the kitchen (must turn off the coffee pot first can't live without the coffee) douse my head with cold water rub it off and run back to my bathroom. Manage to get a brush through it and decide that's good enough for today. Brushed my teeth grabbed my glasses grabbed a cup of coffee and I was out of the house. Made it to work with 1 minute to spare.

Get logged into my computer and the second I get logged into that phone its non stop calls so I am rushed there too. So I get my break late I might add and am rushed there. Come back when its lunch time of course getting back on the phone I am rushed there too. So its been a crazy morning. However my supervisor said a tech didn't know what to do with a call where the computer she was working on said "Panic Need To Dump". Needless to say we all found that hysterical and are still laughing at it.

So now on to the meat of today lol a girl I work with is seeing my gastric Dr about to have the procedure and she can't get her surgery scheduled until July 22 so I don't want to miss the family reunion this year (always the high light of my year) so looks like I might schedule for Aug or late Aug so I have a little time off for football. I am going to call them tomorrow and see what we can set up. That being said I might actually have a little extra time to drop a few pounds prior to the surgery which he said we all needed to do that.

I have to admit I am a little nervous about all this. Its a huge change in life style but have spoke to several people that are more than happy they did it. I have decided that after I lose all this weight I am going to work myself to death to get the rest of the surgeries. Can't wait to get new boobs lol. Kidding but possibly I will just depends on how baggy they really get.

So the crash helmet in my picture is, yes, Life is a journey but buckle up its a bumpy ride.

Until we meet again.

First Day

So I am about to embark on a new life and have been asked to blog this next Journey. Life is a journey and it is a short one at that. As I get older I realize just how short life really is. Even if you live 100 years it is but a vapor as the bible says.

A little background history on me. I am Terrie mom of four boys and wife to Karl. The greatest thing I'v ever done is be the boys mom. I am very proud of them and so happy that God let me be their mom. It was not without its trials but every trial was worth it. I love ebing able to say I am very close to each one of them. I have also been over weight all my life. I had about 1.5 years when my weight was at a good place and as I like to say I was a hottie. I am not longer a hottie on the outside but am on the inside lol. Life happens and things happen and I have ballooned to a ridiculous weight and have decided to have gastric bypass. This is the new adventure I spoke of earlier. Some friends have suggested that I blog it but I decided to blog all of life not just that journey. I want something for my children to look back on when I am gone and say I knew my mother very well and I know where I came from and where I want to go.

So thus starts my journey with the gastric bypass and leaving my boys a peice of me.

There is a lot of debating that goes on with gastric bypass such as I know I should because I can't keep going like I am now but its a drastic change and what about all that extra skin. My deciding factor was that I watched my mom and my granny die horrible deaths due to diabetes. I have been diagnosed with diabetes for 3 years now. I have already had major issues and I don't want to live like this anymore. I want to be able to play with my grandchildren and just walk around the block without gasping for air.

I want, to be healthy. Tomorrow I will bring you up to date as to where we are in the provess of getting me scheduled for surgery.